I'm Still Alive

Hi Everyone! I am still here....everything went well with my pregnancy...I have a beautiful boy and girl that are 10 1/2 months old. I had a great pregnancy , delivering at 37 weeks with a c-section. I hope to be able to blog again ...in between baby dramas! Hope to hear from all of you!

thank you everyone!

Thank you everyone for your support.....I have an appointment tomorrow just to make sure my two little ones are ok......and then their sending me home to a high risk ob...

Back to Two

Hi: I'm back, sorry to be gone so long, but there has been alot of emotional turmoil the past month. We are back to twins, I had the reduction and feel we made the right decision. From all the data we learned, triplets do not stand nearly as good of chance as twins and that I may have lost all three before we could even discuss premature delivery. I don't know how I feel now, I'm sort of numb about it. I'm trying to live the positive. If I'm going to have a miscarrage now it would be 12 to 14 days from the reduction.

The reduction itself was very painful. I won't go into the details but it hurt like hell. They gave me something to relax me, but I don't think it worked at all.

Anyways, we're hoping for two healthy babies. My stomach is really growing, I'm headed for Old Navy Maternity on thursday, just to get some shorts to make it thru the summer. I am very tired in the afternoons and I am still trying to shake this moring sickness that hits about 3-4 o'clock. It is better, but I just want to feel well again.

So thats it for now, I have probably shocked some people, but you have to do what you have to do sometimes. And we believe this was the right thing to do, for all of us.

going good

I went for my appointment yesterday, my family doctor is great. He was very encouraging and said that I had to do what is best for me and talk everyones advice and throw it out the window. I had my progesterone tested , but they said I won't have the results for a week, I need them by friday to call the clinic and get off this medication. He gave me a prescription for DiClectin. It seems to be working a little, I do feel better this morning. Thank god for drugs. So now we wait for our appointment in August. We told a few family members this past weekend, but not about the three. We'll wait until a decision is made.

Still 3

Our ultrasound went well, there are still 3,,,,very good size and good heartbeats. It was hard seeing them, knowing that there is a decision to be made. It was the first time I have had an ultrasound on my stomach, thats a breeze.....more later

Just an Update

Just a update. I got in touch with my family doctor yesterday ( he was on holidays) and I have a ultrasound for Thursday and then an appt with him next monday. Hopefully for some medication for this morning sickness. It is a little better, but hits me bad about 3 pm. Now I don't have to drive to my clinic anymore. They said to have blood work on Monday and let them know the results so that I can get off the progesterone. I stop taking estrace at 10 weeks regardless. They said sometimes you have to take progesterone until 12 weeks, I hope not . I think all the drugs are not helping my sickness. I guess you take aspirin until 35 weeks....ha ha I won't make it that long with twins. So we will see Thursday if they are all still there. I have not had any more bleeding, but I have a strange feeling that there are 4 now. (please no) I will be glad to see with my own eyes what is going on in there.

So I spend my mornings doing as much as I can, before it hits...It is just an awful feeling. Just blah! Hope it goes away by 12 weeks like they said. I don't feel like I am a functioning human being right now. After the trip to the specialist happens, I will feel better too. So that is where we are. I will update Thursday or Friday with ultrasound news!

one day at a time

Can't believe its been almost a week since I've posted. I am in constant turmol. So its hard to have a clear thought to write down. I have felt a little better the past few days(knock on wood) and that helps. I have been busy, doing what I don't know, just busy. Yesterday we had a scare, I started bleeding red blood. I have been having alot of brown, but not red. There is no pain and it stopped in about an hour, I called the clinic and they said if it got heavy to head for a hospital...but it stopped. So here we are...I got my appt with the clinic for multiples. In about 3 weeks. I was supppose to go back to our clinic on Monday, but I don't think we will. Its such a long drive and for what. Though there was a 30% chance that one could go away. Probably not in my lifetime. I don't really want to see them. I don't want to put a face to the heartbeat if you know what I mean. I am trying to remain neutral. so I go along , one day at a time. July is going to be a long month! Thank you for all you supporting comments.

Alone

Your probably wondering what happened to me. Well, it has been so hot here and I have been so sick. This morning sickness is awful and I have it all day, its worse at night. Today I do feel a little better, it is much cooler here too. The things I've read say it could go on to week 14, oh god! I just have this very yucky feeling all the time.

I have been referred to a place in the city for multiples! Not sure whats going to happen but at least we will get some information on our options. Physically, mentally and financially I don't think we can do three. We just don't have the support system needed to make it thru that. I'm not ruling anything out. But three means going to bed at week 20 until hopefully week 32.

So needless to say, it hasn't been much of a celebration here....you want to be happy but there is so much unknown. The clinic has a one week turn around for referrals, so I will know by next friday when my appt is. There is not much of a time frame to make a decision.

Depression is sneaking in,,,,I have just been so sick and the drugs and the pressure. Sometimes it gets to me. I feel alone. It is draining my strength.

Three

And then there were three......not much to say right now...more tomorrow

waiting

Sorry for my absence. Things are always hectic here the week before you open. When you have 14 cottages, things get busy. I've been feeling icky. It starts around 11 am and goes till about 3pm. Sometimes longer. I woke up with a brown discharge. I called the clinic and they said sometimes the progesterone irritates the cervix and thats what it could be. They are only concerned if its fresh blood. If that happens, call the clinic. If that happens, I don't think they can do much. I haven't gained any weight yet. I can still get into my jeans, I'm just tired alot. so I have 3 more sleeps until the big day. I am really looking forward to it. Maybe then we can breath. Its like your always holding your breath, waiting for the other shoe to drop.......

Hoping for the best

Its hard not to think of the future. You try not to let your mind wander. Take each day at a time. But you start to think of all the things you need to get done in the next 6 months, but you don't want to think of them because what if it doesn't come true. I won't know until the 25th if they are really in there or not. The number 3 comes across my mind every so often. I've done some research on reduction. My clinic send you to Philidelphia. I hope we don't have to go that route. But don't you want to give the strongest the best chance. I truly in my heart think that whatever is meant to be will be.

On a better note. I feel perfectly fine. I have been walking every day. I have been eating right....I have been hoping for the best.

Its a beautiful day

Today is a beautiful day. I woke up at 3:30 in a sweat. I will be glad when the hot flashes go. Also I am becoming alittle sick of being a pin cushion. It gets sort of depression being sore all the time. The end result is worth it though. I am heading out for an early walk. It has been so hot here in the afternoons. Want to get going before it warms up. I am a little less stressed now. As long as things go well on the 25th, I am thinking positively. Lets keep our fingers crossed! Thank you all for all you support.

Twins

So far they are saying twins, but there was another little blurb.....The doctor first said yes, but then said I don't think so. When we first went in, they said ok, your probably only going to see a thicker lining in your uterus. Needless to say I was going to flip out. But there they were , two 6.5 mm little round blobs. Nothing else anywhere. I was so relieved. They said that they were just sacs and that the could still disappear. Until they see the heartbeats they are not true pregnancys. So we go back June 25th..... They are giving us that long because one we are so far away and two because they want to make sure that if we drive all that way there is something to see...I am so relieved,,,except for that little blob. But there was 3 of those so the doctor really didn't think that it was anything...I can breath again...Maybe celebrate a little...still not out of the woods yet. Its amazing that twins can be a relief......more tomorrow

One or Two

Did you see the story of the sextuplits born in Arizona yesterday morning. 3 boys 3 girls, all 2 lbs . No problems so far. I sat there watching the story thinking turn it off, turn it off. Your only famous if you have at least 6 now. Tomorrow will tell the tale. If you had told me 2 years ago I would be in this situation, I would have laughed. 18 years we've been married. I thought this subject was all over until my husband brought it up last April. We'll see what happens. I'll let you know. Please think the numbers 1 or 2 for me........